So I was supposed to take a flight to Jozi today. So, we all packed our bags and headed off to the airport, like the good little troopers we are. When we get there we find out that our flight has been CANCELLED!!! So I start laughing because I knew that nothing goo could come from the airline that had engines falling from their planes not so long ago.
Okay, okay go ahead and judge me for being so naive and believing that what was once one of my favourite airlines could rise from the ashes. I guess I'm just one of those people: the hopelessly optimistic type.
So I walk over to the friendly people at the check in counter and ask them what C-A-N-CE-L-L-E-D means for me and mine. The man behind the counter smirks, looks at his buddies and repeats my question: 'what does it means?' Now I know I'm dealing with a genius. 'Yes... WHAT DOES IT MEAN FOR ME?' He smiles, like I'm the idiot, and says 'It means it's cancelled'. Great. So I bring down the IQ to Amoeba level and ask in baby words 'what the F&^% I'm supposed to do.' Then he tells me that I must try another airline and fill in a refund form. I walk away, laughing because I don't want to murder a person who is taking up way too much space anyway. So Marcee takes over.
It turns out the Amoeba omitted the fact that this REFUND will take a couple of months. Who hires these people? After a few painful minutes we discover that we can go to the ticket sales people and get moved to another flight. The ticket people were MUCH smarter than the last chap. So I ask 'why did nobody call us?'. The girl behind the desk smiles and says 'did nobody call you?' AM I SPEAKING GREEK?? So we get moved to a flight on Christmas Eve and went back home.
I am extremely annoyed with NATIONWIDE and after this run in with their friendly staff I have no interest in using them again. If you were thinking about giving this airline a 2nd chance... GOOD LUCK TO YOU!!!
Never mind that I spent all this money paying for a taxi to take me to the airport and how that messes with my schedule: studios were cancelled in Cape Town, I had to make a million phone calls and I HATE THAT AIRLINE!!!!
NATIONWIDE SUCKS... In my humble opinion.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Blonde moment of note
So there I was visting the people over at John-the-Legend.com , spotted their link over at Stelly's. So I see 'WIFEBEATER WEDENESDAY' and I'm like 'what?'. They have abusive men on this blog, so I scroll down and see the respectable Mr John in one of those vests they call 'wifebeater'. I breathed a sigh of relief.
Boy did I feel Blonde!! So the ladies over there have some interesting pics of Mr John looking surprisingly sexy. Not that I don't think that he is sexy, but well... I'd really rather think of him as cute/sweet/cuddly/intelligent. But hey, different strokes right? Is it just me, or does he look like he has been working out? I'm hitting the gym in the new year.
I am going home for a week and may not be able to post anything, so I'm leaving you with the best of the 'Wednesday Wifebeater' moments. ENJOY!!
HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Have fun with your loved ones and PLEASE be safe.
The old and the new
I went and bought some music the other day and so far I've listened (I mean really listened) to 2 of the albums. This is what I thought of the music:
It is so great to see where 'our fave rapper' comes from musically. When I first listened to the album I chuckled a bit at how young dude sounded and how many F-bombs, n-bombs and MotherF$#*&%$ he drops.... Oh how far we've come Commy Com! At most times this album can be described as 'laid back'. I especially enjoyed 'Retrospect for life', which I had not heard in a long time. This song about abortion vs birth and taking responsibility for our actions. That song gets better every time I hear it.
Pops. as always does his thing at the end of the album and his 'fatherhood rap' was especially touching. 'One day it'll all make sense' is the coming of age of Lonnie Lynn Jr and I thoroughly enjoyed taking the journey with him. Over and over again.
With guest collaborators like John Mayer (you know he is also one of my faves), Linda Perry (she continues to inspire) and of course Kerry 'Krucial' Brothers there is no way this album could fail. Besides the collaborations though it sounds like A. Keys is very comfortable with her voice and she was not afraid to use it either.
There are many great tracks on this album, Rolling Stone seems to be infatuated with 'Teenage Love Affair', while I'm absolutely besotted with 'Superwoman' which has the potential to turn into a 'ladies anthem'. I am not disappointed at all with the way A Keys is. HALLELU-YER!!! She is BACK!!
The old:
It is so great to see where 'our fave rapper' comes from musically. When I first listened to the album I chuckled a bit at how young dude sounded and how many F-bombs, n-bombs and MotherF$#*&%$ he drops.... Oh how far we've come Commy Com! At most times this album can be described as 'laid back'. I especially enjoyed 'Retrospect for life', which I had not heard in a long time. This song about abortion vs birth and taking responsibility for our actions. That song gets better every time I hear it.
G.O.D ft Cee-Lo is also another one of my favourites, Marcee LOVES it (she listens to it everyday). This album was released in 1997 and I'm inclined to say it was slightly before it's time. It even includes a little bit of 'comedy' on Stolen Moments (pt 1- 3). There are also some great collaborations with De La Soul, Ms Badu, Lauryn Hill, Canibus and Chantay Savage (on 'Reminding me of 'Sef' which I hadn't heard in ages too.
To say this album is deep would not be doing it justice because it is so beautifully done and above that: our man Com shows us what hip hop should really be about... Real people with real stories!
To say this album is deep would not be doing it justice because it is so beautifully done and above that: our man Com shows us what hip hop should really be about... Real people with real stories!
Pops. as always does his thing at the end of the album and his 'fatherhood rap' was especially touching. 'One day it'll all make sense' is the coming of age of Lonnie Lynn Jr and I thoroughly enjoyed taking the journey with him. Over and over again.
RATING: 4 OUT 5
The new:
Ms Keys is back!!! I have been a fan since the very beginning, so please excuse me if I gush a little. This album is very 'grown up' in the sense that Ms Keys did not feel like she needed to conform to the 'sugary' music that female singers seem to be stuck on. She delivers her own brand of music, she just brought it up a few notches.
With guest collaborators like John Mayer (you know he is also one of my faves), Linda Perry (she continues to inspire) and of course Kerry 'Krucial' Brothers there is no way this album could fail. Besides the collaborations though it sounds like A. Keys is very comfortable with her voice and she was not afraid to use it either.
There are many great tracks on this album, Rolling Stone seems to be infatuated with 'Teenage Love Affair', while I'm absolutely besotted with 'Superwoman' which has the potential to turn into a 'ladies anthem'. I am not disappointed at all with the way A Keys is. HALLELU-YER!!! She is BACK!!
RATING: 4.5 out of 5
All Bisexual Polygamist jokes aside though. I am very proud of my purchases. And you know I keep telling people 'Even when I'm a mess, I still put on a vest with an S on my chest... I'M A SUPERWOMAN!!!' I love it!!!!
Friday, December 21, 2007
Eat your food and shut up
Last night little brother (who is visiting for a week), wife and I went out for supper at a place down the road. Little brother had never had Sushi so we thought we take him for a bit of ROU VIS (raw fish).
Never mind that I had a fever and a killer migraine, nothing is too much for the men in my life. The whole evening is great. He is IN LOVE with Sushi (well done boi!!) and I discovered that drinking water all night is not such a bad thing.
A family of four (mom, dad and 2 sons) sit down next to us and the evening goes on. The food wasn't AMAZING, but the Sushi was great. We were sitting too close to the kitchen, but I'm really not a fussy customer. As long as I'm not sitting nest to the stove I'm happy ha ha ha ha. Anyway next thing I know, 'Mr Dad' next to us is being rude to the waiter. Not quietly, but full on making sure that people around can hear him. The waiter, who was obviously spinning, brought them something they didn't order. So 'Mr Dad' says 'WHY WOULD WE WANT SOMETHING WE DIDN'T ORDER'. Waiter boy cowers and goes back to the kitchen.
One of the managers goes up to 'Mr Asshole Dad' and asks if there is a problem (not in a confrontational way, just to try and sort out the mess). 'M.A.D' mutter something and then waiter girl says something with an uneasy smile and then 'M.A.D' shouts 'Then why do you ask me if I have a problem, when he is the one with the problem.'
As you can imagine some people get off on S%$& like this because maybe when they have reached a certain age that is the only kind of real satisfaction they are guaranteed to get. So he goes on and on and on, being SOOOO VERY asshole-ish. At this point I am about to stick my little boets steak knife in his jugular just to make him shut up because he is not the only person in the restaurant. But violence is NEVER the answer, so I carry on drinking my cold water.
Then something occurred to me. In all the time the 'M.A.D' was acting like a complete idiot, his wife just sat by looking pretty. She didn't even give him the side eye. You know. The oooweee-wait-till-we-get-to-the-car eye. I started thinking about what kind of message that foolish behaviour was sending to his sons. Would they one day grow up to become 'mini M.A.D's?
I guess one needs to think about things like this when you are with someone that you think you are gonna marry. You may think his tantrums are 'cute' or 'macho', but it's not so cute when children emulate that kind of behaviour. NO SIR!!! How many women actually think about things like that when they are considering being with someone for the rest of their lives? Interesting question isn't it?
I KNOW I want to have kids one day so when I meet the man who is going to be lucky enough to put up with all my FABULOUSNESS and 'minimal' asshole-ish-ness, I will make sure that he is the kind of man who will not only be a good example to his kids, but also one that responds well to the side eye. The last bit was a joke ha ha ha ha.
Never mind that I had a fever and a killer migraine, nothing is too much for the men in my life. The whole evening is great. He is IN LOVE with Sushi (well done boi!!) and I discovered that drinking water all night is not such a bad thing.
A family of four (mom, dad and 2 sons) sit down next to us and the evening goes on. The food wasn't AMAZING, but the Sushi was great. We were sitting too close to the kitchen, but I'm really not a fussy customer. As long as I'm not sitting nest to the stove I'm happy ha ha ha ha. Anyway next thing I know, 'Mr Dad' next to us is being rude to the waiter. Not quietly, but full on making sure that people around can hear him. The waiter, who was obviously spinning, brought them something they didn't order. So 'Mr Dad' says 'WHY WOULD WE WANT SOMETHING WE DIDN'T ORDER'. Waiter boy cowers and goes back to the kitchen.
One of the managers goes up to 'Mr Asshole Dad' and asks if there is a problem (not in a confrontational way, just to try and sort out the mess). 'M.A.D' mutter something and then waiter girl says something with an uneasy smile and then 'M.A.D' shouts 'Then why do you ask me if I have a problem, when he is the one with the problem.'
As you can imagine some people get off on S%$& like this because maybe when they have reached a certain age that is the only kind of real satisfaction they are guaranteed to get. So he goes on and on and on, being SOOOO VERY asshole-ish. At this point I am about to stick my little boets steak knife in his jugular just to make him shut up because he is not the only person in the restaurant. But violence is NEVER the answer, so I carry on drinking my cold water.
Then something occurred to me. In all the time the 'M.A.D' was acting like a complete idiot, his wife just sat by looking pretty. She didn't even give him the side eye. You know. The oooweee-wait-till-we-get-to-the-car eye. I started thinking about what kind of message that foolish behaviour was sending to his sons. Would they one day grow up to become 'mini M.A.D's?
I guess one needs to think about things like this when you are with someone that you think you are gonna marry. You may think his tantrums are 'cute' or 'macho', but it's not so cute when children emulate that kind of behaviour. NO SIR!!! How many women actually think about things like that when they are considering being with someone for the rest of their lives? Interesting question isn't it?
I KNOW I want to have kids one day so when I meet the man who is going to be lucky enough to put up with all my FABULOUSNESS and 'minimal' asshole-ish-ness, I will make sure that he is the kind of man who will not only be a good example to his kids, but also one that responds well to the side eye. The last bit was a joke ha ha ha ha.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
What I'm looking forward to in 2008
There are 11 days to go and then 2008 is here...
Scary, but oh so exciting. Scary because I feel like it was just yesterday when I started a new job and had to deal with some crazy S&%t. Exciting because 2008 is going to be MY YEAR. 2007 was definitely the year that I learnt more about myself. I'm talking about some serious 'navel gazing' here. I have learnt so much about myself... Jeepers!
1. Releasing my EP
I know, I know... This year was Crazy!!! There are 3 tracks already and these are 'BIG GIRL' tracks, not the baby stuff I was doing. I will even be flexing the vocal muscles a bit, none of this sweet lazy singing ha ha ha. I don't want to say when it will be released and then have people call me a liar, but I'm hoping that all will be done by the end of March (2008).
2. Publishing my book
Okay this might come as a shock, but I've been working on a book for the last 2 yrs and it's almost done. I am in the process of finding an editor who will help me work out the kinks and then I'm publishing that bad boy.
3. Moving into a bigger place
Marcee and I have been living in this cute bachelor for about 2 yrs now. I strongly believe in NOT living beyond your means, this cute matchbox bachelor of our is all we could afford for the last 2 years, but we have since grown (as in gained weight and are earning a little bit more dosh) and we are ready to MOVE OUT. Let the search for a new place begin.
4. SHINE
My girl Estelle's album is dropping in Feb. I don't need to explain why I've got mad luv and respek for her do I? Go here if you really have no clue. Watch out for this lady, she's gonna blow up.
5. Performing LIVE
Once that EP is released I am taking this show on the road for real! I CANNOT wait to do my thing on stage. Before that I need to find a band though. Let's hope that goes smoothly LOL! As if...
6. Starting my NPO
I can't really say much right now because... Well, there's too much to say and I'm a sickling and I don't feel like getting into it. All I can say is that it has something to do with kids, books and redefining their perceptions.
7. Getting the 2nd and FINAL tattoo
I was supposed to do it this year, but I didn't feel ready. I know it sounds weird but I didn't. Below is the on I got last year (2006). Aaaah fun times, fun times...
8. Seeing how the ANC drama plays out
Jacob Zuma is the president of the ANC and Thabo Mbeki has to answer to a man who he fired as his deputy. This should be very interesting. VERY VERY INTERESTING! A lot of people are nervous about this. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet, to be quite honest.
9. Losing a little bit of weight
Damn, I need to lose a few centimetres around my stomach ha ha ha ha. Seriously! Living the good life requires one to watch what they eat clearly. Too much good food, too little time.
10. My little boet starting Varsity
I was there for my little brothers first day of school and now he is going to be starting University. WOW!! He is such a sweet guy and he is smart as well. I can't wait to watch him grow into the wonderful man I know he is capable of being.
11. NEW BEGINNINGS
An opportunity for us all to start over again. And when I say start over again, I don't mean making New Years resolutions. I mean learning the lessons of the past year and not making the same mistakes over. I have learnt that for as long as you keep ignoring the lessons, you will keep attracting the same things into your life.
I'm coughing up a lung here, so I'm learning the lesson and getting back into bed. I'm learning to listen to my body. Sulk, sulk, whine, cough, moan, cough, cough, cough...
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Amazing weather + Fever =
Me missing work and 'hallucinating' (okay I exaggerate but I really did miss work)
Okay... So yesterday when I was talking about 'flu meds' I was talking about some meds that I had left over from my last flu-ey-ness-ness. Well I had some 'Med Lemon', fell asleep and thought everything would be just fine. Marcee and my little brother, who is visiting for a week, say I was being 'violent' (as in shouting at them for making a noise) and 'hallucinating'. They tend to exaggerate and they love messing with my mind.
Last night was terrible. I kept waking up in the middle of the night to blow my nose, or to cough up a lung, to pee (because flu meds do that to me) or to pull the covers off me. Well TODAY was even worse!! It was 32 degrees Celsius here in Cape Town and I felt like my body was on fire. Went to go and see my favourite Dr and he told me that I have a FEVER!!!
FEVER? FEVER! You can only imagine how I am feeling. Not going to work tomorrow either and I'm taking antibiotics. What a lovely way to spend the holidays.
Off to bed (sulk, sulk whine, moan, cough, sulk, faint)
Okay... So yesterday when I was talking about 'flu meds' I was talking about some meds that I had left over from my last flu-ey-ness-ness. Well I had some 'Med Lemon', fell asleep and thought everything would be just fine. Marcee and my little brother, who is visiting for a week, say I was being 'violent' (as in shouting at them for making a noise) and 'hallucinating'. They tend to exaggerate and they love messing with my mind.
Last night was terrible. I kept waking up in the middle of the night to blow my nose, or to cough up a lung, to pee (because flu meds do that to me) or to pull the covers off me. Well TODAY was even worse!! It was 32 degrees Celsius here in Cape Town and I felt like my body was on fire. Went to go and see my favourite Dr and he told me that I have a FEVER!!!
FEVER? FEVER! You can only imagine how I am feeling. Not going to work tomorrow either and I'm taking antibiotics. What a lovely way to spend the holidays.
Off to bed (sulk, sulk whine, moan, cough, sulk, faint)
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
What I've learnt in 2007
So I'm at home sick and waiting for the 'flu meds' to kick in. Whenever I'm online I check out a few peoples blogs and while I was visiting Sickamore's blog I came across this post (what I learnt in 2007). It inspired me to do my own. So here goes:
Carol/Tso/Cazmo/Black Porcelain/Ms Mashigo
Singer, songwriter, writer, Radio presenter & producer
December 18
In bed (Cape Town, South Africa)
21:45 pm
- Slow is beautiful. I used to run through breakfast, work, learning how to play the piano etc. This year I found the joy in experiencing every moment of what I'm doing. I have learnt to be PRESENT in every moment of my life, so I can be the best me I can be at every moment of my life.
- No matter what I do, there will always be someone who does not like it/me. I got a job that someone elses was not very well at (I didn't ask for it, I just got it) . Instead of looking at themselves that person turned their anger toward me. No matter what you do, how well you do it or how good your intentions are. There will ALWAYS be someone who think you are 'scum of the earth', so do what you want to do for you and no one else.
- I underestimate myself way too much. This year I changed jobs, got a 'promotion' in less than 6 months of starting my new job, doubled my income, made the nay sayers eat their words, wrote 3 new songs (by myself) on the piano (that I only started playing less that 2 yrs ago). I don't underestimate myself anymore!!
- I can have a good time without drinking. At varsity I used to drink a WHOLE lot, but outside of that environment I have really moved away from that.
- This is STILL a mans world. Intelligent women still don't have their power. Booty shaking and being someones 'woman' is still what counts. Capable singers have to resort to being naked to be respected and men can look as shabby as shabby as they want and they still get respect.
- Never have sex or try to have sex when you are NOT READY for it. Things work so much better when you are ready. Sex is so much more than getting naked with someone... SO SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. Sex starts with you: what you say to yourself, how much you value yourself and being responsible for your own actions.
- Gratitude is POWERFUL! Being grateful for what you have EVERYDAY makes you see how much you really have and it also opens you up for more blessings.
- Preventing the spread of HIV has very little to do with education and everything to do with people's attitudes. Too many young WOMEN who are very educated are STILL dying from HIV/AIDS.
- I believe that we have let the youth down in a very bad way. Just switch on your TV, radio, go on the Internet or listen to what kids are saying. I'm not saying that I am old and wise but I am saying that these kids are confused and there is a lot of work that WE ALL need to do to 'rescue' the youth.
- No matter how good you think you are as a president, if you alienate your team they will not vote for you again. Leaving the people that you are leading in total confusion.
- I live in a beautiful, but equally sad country.
- I LOVE my life!
I think that's it...
Carol/Tso/Cazmo/Black Porcelain/Ms Mashigo
Singer, songwriter, writer, Radio presenter & producer
December 18
In bed (Cape Town, South Africa)
21:45 pm
- Slow is beautiful. I used to run through breakfast, work, learning how to play the piano etc. This year I found the joy in experiencing every moment of what I'm doing. I have learnt to be PRESENT in every moment of my life, so I can be the best me I can be at every moment of my life.
- No matter what I do, there will always be someone who does not like it/me. I got a job that someone elses was not very well at (I didn't ask for it, I just got it) . Instead of looking at themselves that person turned their anger toward me. No matter what you do, how well you do it or how good your intentions are. There will ALWAYS be someone who think you are 'scum of the earth', so do what you want to do for you and no one else.
- I underestimate myself way too much. This year I changed jobs, got a 'promotion' in less than 6 months of starting my new job, doubled my income, made the nay sayers eat their words, wrote 3 new songs (by myself) on the piano (that I only started playing less that 2 yrs ago). I don't underestimate myself anymore!!
- I can have a good time without drinking. At varsity I used to drink a WHOLE lot, but outside of that environment I have really moved away from that.
- This is STILL a mans world. Intelligent women still don't have their power. Booty shaking and being someones 'woman' is still what counts. Capable singers have to resort to being naked to be respected and men can look as shabby as shabby as they want and they still get respect.
- Never have sex or try to have sex when you are NOT READY for it. Things work so much better when you are ready. Sex is so much more than getting naked with someone... SO SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. Sex starts with you: what you say to yourself, how much you value yourself and being responsible for your own actions.
- Gratitude is POWERFUL! Being grateful for what you have EVERYDAY makes you see how much you really have and it also opens you up for more blessings.
- Preventing the spread of HIV has very little to do with education and everything to do with people's attitudes. Too many young WOMEN who are very educated are STILL dying from HIV/AIDS.
- I believe that we have let the youth down in a very bad way. Just switch on your TV, radio, go on the Internet or listen to what kids are saying. I'm not saying that I am old and wise but I am saying that these kids are confused and there is a lot of work that WE ALL need to do to 'rescue' the youth.
- No matter how good you think you are as a president, if you alienate your team they will not vote for you again. Leaving the people that you are leading in total confusion.
- I live in a beautiful, but equally sad country.
- I LOVE my life!
I think that's it...
Monday, December 17, 2007
They send it, I post it
So the other day on this post I was complaining that my friends wont send me pics that I can;t put on my posts, then a lovely young lady sent me a picture.
From L- R: AK (Team Captain), random I don't know, Stevie (that is not her real name), Dumisa-the-hotness-without-a-shirt, Phi. LOVE IT!!!
Now my friends are ALL very beautiful, smart and like I said before they are 'ride or die' women, so below is a photo of a few of the women who make this life SOOOOO much more fun and easier to live.
From L- R: AK (Team Captain), random I don't know, Stevie (that is not her real name), Dumisa-the-hotness-without-a-shirt, Phi. LOVE IT!!!
Pic above compliments of my girl Phi who recently celebrated her birthday. LOVE YOU GIRL!!! 
Me and Zoey (it was on my birthday this year at Noordhoek beach- FUN TIMES)
Em (with her back to the camera), Jess (trying to take a bite out of my SEXY...) and me (drinking wine out of a champagne glass).
To my other friends: SEND THE PICS and I PUT THEM UP. I'm very proud of all of you.
I didn't get the memo
So there I was playing on the Internet at my favourite spot: YouTube... Yes I play there and soon I might even start posting bits and pieces from the 'making of (insert any name here for now- I don't have a name for the EP yet)'... No promises, because you know I'm not really technologically advanced.
BACK TO THE MEMO I DIDN'T RECEIVE. My MOST FAVOURITEST song on Mr John's 'Once Again' is Another again. The whole CD is amazing but that one is the one that I can listen to OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER... So you can imagine my surprise when I found that it has a video. Hmmm!!!
WHY am I ALWAYS the last to know these things?? Oh well. Here it is:
BACK TO THE MEMO I DIDN'T RECEIVE. My MOST FAVOURITEST song on Mr John's 'Once Again' is Another again. The whole CD is amazing but that one is the one that I can listen to OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER... So you can imagine my surprise when I found that it has a video. Hmmm!!!
WHY am I ALWAYS the last to know these things?? Oh well. Here it is:
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Back from Jozi
I spent Thurs, Fri and Sat in Jozi and now I'm SOOO exhausted.
Tomorrow is a 'public holiday' and I am working. I hate getting to work and the building is deserted, although that's pretty much how it's going to be for the rest of the month. DARN IT!!! One day when I can afford to take a holiday I'm going to do it... I mean REALLY do it! Go somewhere far away, see the sites, see the places where 'tourists' don't go, flirt with men who don't speak any of the languages I speak, eat exotic food, get sick because exotic food is too much for my stomach, buy loads of stuff, do everything I possibly can in those few day, enjoy the scenery, take LOADS of pictures and ENJOY being away from home and work for a few days... One day soon....
I am feeling very inspired and everyday I am taking steps that are bringing me closer to my 'vision'. Over the past few days the vision has grown like you wont believe. It almost seems too big to be done over night and I'm willing to work very hard for however long it takes to make it all come true.
I have so much to share, but not enough energy to put it all down. SIGH!! Have too much work to do anyway...
BE BLESSED!
Tomorrow is a 'public holiday' and I am working. I hate getting to work and the building is deserted, although that's pretty much how it's going to be for the rest of the month. DARN IT!!! One day when I can afford to take a holiday I'm going to do it... I mean REALLY do it! Go somewhere far away, see the sites, see the places where 'tourists' don't go, flirt with men who don't speak any of the languages I speak, eat exotic food, get sick because exotic food is too much for my stomach, buy loads of stuff, do everything I possibly can in those few day, enjoy the scenery, take LOADS of pictures and ENJOY being away from home and work for a few days... One day soon....
I am feeling very inspired and everyday I am taking steps that are bringing me closer to my 'vision'. Over the past few days the vision has grown like you wont believe. It almost seems too big to be done over night and I'm willing to work very hard for however long it takes to make it all come true.
I have so much to share, but not enough energy to put it all down. SIGH!! Have too much work to do anyway...
BE BLESSED!
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
The best of 2007 Part 1
Okay, so I realised that yesterday's post made 2007 seem a little sad. This year has been and continues to be AMAZING. I have grown so much and have learnt so much about myself.
So I'm going to share some of the things that have gotten me through the year.
NOT ON THE LIST BECAUSE IT JUST WOULDN'T BE FAIR: MARCEE
I really don't know how else to explain how wonderful it is to know that regardless of what I have or haven't done there is someone who LOVES me and BELIEVES in me. Having Marcia in my life is incredible. If I didn't love men so much I would seriously marry her, because that's how much I love her. Me and my fellow nerd are about to take the world by storm. WATCH OUT WORLD!!
Now I can begin with the list
1. John Mayer's Continuum album
Wow!! When I first heard 'waiting on the world to change' I had no idea he was the 'your body is a wonderland' guy. I wasn't a fan of that song nefore, but now I even play it on my show sometimes. 'Waiting on the world to change' is a great track , but I enjoy the message more than I do the 'music'. This whole album was like a great conversation with a friend I hadn't seen in a long time. I LOVE LOVE it. It's actually my driving music at the moment (I decided to give 'Finding Forever' a rest). This album manages to lift me when I need it or let's me cry when I need it too.
John's SOOO got that hot 'sulky artistic white boy thing' going in that pic. HEY JOHN LET'S GET TOGETHER AND DO A REALLY KICK ASS SONG LOL!!! CALL ME!!!
My absolute favourite songs off this album... That's a tough one, but I think I will go with 'Vultures', 'Stop this train', 'Gravity' and 'I'm gonna find another you'. WHAT AN AMAZING ALBUM. Did I mention that the man blogs as well? So, occasionally he lets you have a peak into the sometimes incomprehensible world of John Mayer. Nice.
2. A new phone. HALLELUYER!!!!
It's a Samsung L760. After carrying around my beloved brick (Nokia 3510i), it was really time to get a new phone. I am very scared of technology so this was a big step for me. I feel so much better knowing that my phone wont die as soon as it rings. And I find people don't look at me funny when I pull out my phone and read an sms, as opposed to trying to guess what it says because there is a solid line in the middle of your screen from when you dropped your phone in varsity ha ha ha ha ha.
3. The fam
No I do not think that the phone is less important than the fam. NEVER!!! I just happened to put them in this order. I talk to my family members at least 5 times a week. They have gone from expecting me to be who they thought I should be to completely trusting that I will not F$#& up. They support me, even when they don't understand why I do the things I do. I'm TRULY BLESSED. I will try and get pics of all of them together. (I'll try to get my dad to smile)
4. Meeting Dr John F Demartini
I am not exaggerating when I say that things could have gone VERY wrong this year had I not met Dr Demartini. I was truly READY to meet him and HEAR what he had to say. Had it been at any other time of my life I would have laughed it all off and carried on 'wasting my life'.
After meeting this incredible man I got my A into G, bought 3 of his books and started LIVING the BEST life right NOW. Thanks Dr Demartini, you will never know how RIGHT the time, message and EVERYTHING was when we met. You know what's so weird, he always looks like he does in that picture. Smiling that content smile of his.
5. Working at Radio 2000
This has been one of the most interesting, fulfilling and challenging jobs that I have ever done. Admittedly there was a little bit of drama, but what is life without a bit of hardship? I have met some REALLY amazing people through this job. I am on air 6 times a week on national radio station and I really can't complain about that. I LOVE MY JOB (even when things get rough)!!!
WE NOW HAVE STREAMING AUDIO, SO NO MORE EXCUSES FOR NOT LISTENING!!!!
6. John Legend
Ever since Marcee called me and told me to switch on the radio because this 'really nice song is on' and I heard 'Girl I'm in love with you..." I WAS SOLD!!! Like the other John (Mayer, not Demartini) I could listen to this man's music FOREVER. A lady I used to work with once asked me if I 'never get tired of listening to the same song' (the song in question was 'so high') and I answered NO.
When 'Once Again' came out I was one of the first to buy the album. Funny thing is I went to see the man live about 2 yrs ago, I hadn't even bough his CD. Nuff said... Marcee calls him 'Mr John' because you just don't disrespect a man with that much talent LMAO.
7. My girls (Ride or die...)
Now ladies (I know you are going to read this), when I ask for pics and you don't' send them what would you like for me to do. Luckily with this wonderful technology I can put them up even after I 'publish' this post. So pls pls send the PHOTOS.
I have 'RIDE OR DIE' friends. There is nothing we don't do for each other and because there's so many of us, there's always someone to run to when you are in a time of need, someone to borrow cash from and enough friends to buy you EVERYTHING you need when you finally move out of home (Phiwi I am NOT buying you couches silly girl). I have known them for too long and still we have so much to talk about. I mess up so badly and still they don't judge me (while I'm hurting), they tell me when they judge me and I always have someone to have WAY TOO MUCH to drink with. I LOVE YOU GUYS... ALL OF YOU!!!
I think that is enough for one day. More to come. 19 DAYS TO GO!!!
So I'm going to share some of the things that have gotten me through the year.
NOT ON THE LIST BECAUSE IT JUST WOULDN'T BE FAIR: MARCEE
I really don't know how else to explain how wonderful it is to know that regardless of what I have or haven't done there is someone who LOVES me and BELIEVES in me. Having Marcia in my life is incredible. If I didn't love men so much I would seriously marry her, because that's how much I love her. Me and my fellow nerd are about to take the world by storm. WATCH OUT WORLD!!
Now I can begin with the list
1. John Mayer's Continuum album
Wow!! When I first heard 'waiting on the world to change' I had no idea he was the 'your body is a wonderland' guy. I wasn't a fan of that song nefore, but now I even play it on my show sometimes. 'Waiting on the world to change' is a great track , but I enjoy the message more than I do the 'music'. This whole album was like a great conversation with a friend I hadn't seen in a long time. I LOVE LOVE it. It's actually my driving music at the moment (I decided to give 'Finding Forever' a rest). This album manages to lift me when I need it or let's me cry when I need it too.
John's SOOO got that hot 'sulky artistic white boy thing' going in that pic. HEY JOHN LET'S GET TOGETHER AND DO A REALLY KICK ASS SONG LOL!!! CALL ME!!!
My absolute favourite songs off this album... That's a tough one, but I think I will go with 'Vultures', 'Stop this train', 'Gravity' and 'I'm gonna find another you'. WHAT AN AMAZING ALBUM. Did I mention that the man blogs as well? So, occasionally he lets you have a peak into the sometimes incomprehensible world of John Mayer. Nice.
2. A new phone. HALLELUYER!!!!
It's a Samsung L760. After carrying around my beloved brick (Nokia 3510i), it was really time to get a new phone. I am very scared of technology so this was a big step for me. I feel so much better knowing that my phone wont die as soon as it rings. And I find people don't look at me funny when I pull out my phone and read an sms, as opposed to trying to guess what it says because there is a solid line in the middle of your screen from when you dropped your phone in varsity ha ha ha ha ha.
3. The fam
No I do not think that the phone is less important than the fam. NEVER!!! I just happened to put them in this order. I talk to my family members at least 5 times a week. They have gone from expecting me to be who they thought I should be to completely trusting that I will not F$#& up. They support me, even when they don't understand why I do the things I do. I'm TRULY BLESSED. I will try and get pics of all of them together. (I'll try to get my dad to smile)
4. Meeting Dr John F Demartini
I am not exaggerating when I say that things could have gone VERY wrong this year had I not met Dr Demartini. I was truly READY to meet him and HEAR what he had to say. Had it been at any other time of my life I would have laughed it all off and carried on 'wasting my life'.
After meeting this incredible man I got my A into G, bought 3 of his books and started LIVING the BEST life right NOW. Thanks Dr Demartini, you will never know how RIGHT the time, message and EVERYTHING was when we met. You know what's so weird, he always looks like he does in that picture. Smiling that content smile of his.
5. Working at Radio 2000
This has been one of the most interesting, fulfilling and challenging jobs that I have ever done. Admittedly there was a little bit of drama, but what is life without a bit of hardship? I have met some REALLY amazing people through this job. I am on air 6 times a week on national radio station and I really can't complain about that. I LOVE MY JOB (even when things get rough)!!!
WE NOW HAVE STREAMING AUDIO, SO NO MORE EXCUSES FOR NOT LISTENING!!!!
6. John Legend
Ever since Marcee called me and told me to switch on the radio because this 'really nice song is on' and I heard 'Girl I'm in love with you..." I WAS SOLD!!! Like the other John (Mayer, not Demartini) I could listen to this man's music FOREVER. A lady I used to work with once asked me if I 'never get tired of listening to the same song' (the song in question was 'so high') and I answered NO.
When 'Once Again' came out I was one of the first to buy the album. Funny thing is I went to see the man live about 2 yrs ago, I hadn't even bough his CD. Nuff said... Marcee calls him 'Mr John' because you just don't disrespect a man with that much talent LMAO.
7. My girls (Ride or die...)
Now ladies (I know you are going to read this), when I ask for pics and you don't' send them what would you like for me to do. Luckily with this wonderful technology I can put them up even after I 'publish' this post. So pls pls send the PHOTOS.
I have 'RIDE OR DIE' friends. There is nothing we don't do for each other and because there's so many of us, there's always someone to run to when you are in a time of need, someone to borrow cash from and enough friends to buy you EVERYTHING you need when you finally move out of home (Phiwi I am NOT buying you couches silly girl). I have known them for too long and still we have so much to talk about. I mess up so badly and still they don't judge me (while I'm hurting), they tell me when they judge me and I always have someone to have WAY TOO MUCH to drink with. I LOVE YOU GUYS... ALL OF YOU!!!
I think that is enough for one day. More to come. 19 DAYS TO GO!!!
Monday, December 10, 2007
2007's worst/challenges
There are 20 days left of this year and I thought it would be great to take stock of what went down this year. These are the experiences that I found challenging this year.
- Getting a job where my dad is my bosses boss.. Sort of, but not really.
- People talking shit about me getting the job because of the above. Not really saying it to my face though... COWARDS!!
- Working with someone, that person losing their job and I had to take over while they were looking for someone new.
- Having that person not really know WHY they were fired and her thinking that I STOLE her job. Now it's all weird.
- Feeling like I would never be able to write my own songs and make music that I BELIEVED in.
- Having car payments... Oh wow, all that money?!
- Gaining all this weight.
- My old ass phone kept dying whenever it wasn't on the charger. It was 4 yrs old though. Couldn't even receive MMSes.
- My job was taking up too much time.
- Wasn't making enough money and my job HATED me.
- Starting to doubt the 'journey'
- Trying to give up MEAT!!! That was a challenge.
- Taking back my sexuality.
- Being confident that everything I am doing is going to work out and that I am not a screw up. A daily challenge.
- Being there for my Marcee, when I was feeling so despondent about a lot of things.
- Watching my dad go through some really tough times and not being there.
- Not being there for my mom when she was really sick earlier this year. Sometimes she could hardly walk and the Dr didn't know what was wrong with her.
- Letting go off the guilt of not being there for my cousin who died of AIDS. My fear of not wanting to see her in so much pain kept me from being there for her. I still struggle with that. We grew up together and she didn't have great support system. I feel like I failed her to some extent.
- Letting go of the FEAR and GUILT. It can be so crippling.
- Not getting nearly enough sleep, now that I work almost 7 days a week.
Those are the ones I can think of right now. UP NEXT: The BEST of 2007 so far. 20 days to go!!!!
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Hard to get rid of negativity
There has been a lot of negativity in my life recently. Not from me though, it's the people around me that have been negative. And for a while I really allowed myself to get sucked in. Before I knew it I was being just as negative as the people around me: Complaining and S&%# picking like the rest of them. It was a little fun at first: not taking responsibility for anything and blaming other people.
But after a while it got BORING... REALLY BORING! I was getting no joy from being negative. I guess it's because I'm not around the negative all the time. They spend so much time together that they've become addicted to it. Whereas I am off somewhere else, doing something with someone etc. So I only got a 'hit' of the drug once in a while, which just wasn't doing it for me.
So a few days ago I decided that I wasn't going to take part in any more negativity. No more whining, complaining, bitching etc. NOTHING!! It was pretty empowering at first. I was taking responsibility for everything that has happened to me. Things got tough when I had to be around the 'junkies' though. I was turning down offers to 'shnarff' (don;t how to spell that word... Is it even a real word?) the negativity with them. And when I didn't participate I was met with hostility.
What is it about us, that makes us want to be negative all the time?
Your thoughts???
But after a while it got BORING... REALLY BORING! I was getting no joy from being negative. I guess it's because I'm not around the negative all the time. They spend so much time together that they've become addicted to it. Whereas I am off somewhere else, doing something with someone etc. So I only got a 'hit' of the drug once in a while, which just wasn't doing it for me.
So a few days ago I decided that I wasn't going to take part in any more negativity. No more whining, complaining, bitching etc. NOTHING!! It was pretty empowering at first. I was taking responsibility for everything that has happened to me. Things got tough when I had to be around the 'junkies' though. I was turning down offers to 'shnarff' (don;t how to spell that word... Is it even a real word?) the negativity with them. And when I didn't participate I was met with hostility.
What is it about us, that makes us want to be negative all the time?
Your thoughts???
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